Huh?!

Juggling life has never been easy. I'm always like this since the beginning of time. Such a worrier. I let my mind play tricks in my head, then make myself feel miserable, then fight it and bounce back. If someone will reside in my head, surely they will end up in mental facility. I'm such a dork, and weird, and positive, and a mess, all tossed and mixed.
The only thing that makes me sane is the fact that I have these strings of dreams that I keep on reaching without knowing it. I guess my fate has to shake me a li'l bit for me to realize that my dreams are already in front of me, all I have to do is pay attention, focus and listen. Oh gosh, I get distracted easily!!! That's my problem. Plus the tricks, plus the worrisome. It gets cumbersome! hahaha dorky Karen.
I love my life. I'm an emotional wreck, sometimes stupid and idiot lady but I will not trade this life. You know. What am I saying?! See! I'm such a mess. 

Of Planes and Airports

When you're mind is flying while you are in the middle of work loads, that's the time you let the thoughts go and put it in writing. 

Our office is located within the vicinity of Dubai International Airport, beside Terminal 2 and Emirates Engineering to be exact. Everyday, I see airplanes depart and land every minute. Yes, it is a sight to behold. But more than take offs and landing, airport is probably one of the place where you can actually see and feel human emotions. Raw and vulnerable, every person that is about to board or depart a plane, has stories to share. And I am one of those. Plane has been my favorite mode of transportation whenever I travel home. Home means my home country. I've been travelling to and fro Middle East for the past 8 years, and trust me, I will never get used to the feeling of leaving my loved ones. I saw wives/partners crying whenever the partner enters the airport. Excited and enthusiastic pack of travelers, probably "friends" travelling together or first timers. Passengers with over baggage, sorting their stuff in front of check-in counter. Offloaded passengers. Parents with bustling kids, running around and chasing after them. Seatmates that have motion sickness. Stale food. Limited drinks. Pressurized cabin. 

But perhaps my most favorite scene will always be, family waiting for their loved one to arrive. The happiness is contagious. It's like as if they were never gone for a long time. The joy and longing all mixed up. Kisses and embraces that will satiate the distance they were apart. I still have those moments after all these years. And my mom's tears is a sight to behold, because the love is overpowering, she cannot help but cry.  

Well, I guess it's my post-vacation adjustment that triggers this entry. So the next time you board a plane, look everywhere. It will restore your faith in humanity.