Reminder to myself.

You juggle so many things at once, Karen. You try very hard to accomokish things in ahort soan of time, without giving yourwelf a chance to learn with ample time, or let mistakes teach you to build your muscle. You think a lot of other people, OTHER things, OTHER welfare and OTHER comments. Rest. Be still. Do not chase for things that will not matter after a year or two. Focus on ample things. Focus on your priorities. Family. Work. Health. Repeat. No one, I say, no one will ever stay with you except yourself and your family. 

You have to break the pattern. The laziness. The procrastination. Do things dirty, with your bare hands. Smile. Do not let other people to dump their trash on you. Push back politely. Focus fiercely.